Imagine not sleeping for 2 straight nights as in literally no sleeping. Yes, I lie down and I close my eyes but all I see is a complete picture of how life has been this cruel. I don’t know when and how this big trouble started but I am sure that I was not there when it did. The problem blew up on my face and I can’t do anything. I need to accept things.
One thing I learned in math is that you can only solve the problem when you simplify the equation. Group like terms, simplify fractions, etc. But right now, I’ve been seeing all kinds of derivatives when I know all I need is an addition and subtraction.
These have been the worst days of my life. If only I can go somewhere and not go back again, if only I can just make all this hurt go away, if only I can end this right, if only I can. But I can’t. There is only so much I can do.